Samantha’s BLOG of Sex, Sins, and Secrets

Once again, there are no two crossdressers who are exactly alike, and that stands to reason. Are all men alike? No. Are all men who wish to be dominated alike? No. Are all women or Mistresses alike? No. Regardless of common interests and experiences, every group who share certain trait(s), desires or behaviors DOES vary in the specific preferences, details, and manifestations of each individual member. So… Then why is it that this double-edged sword must exist that annoys the daylights out of me? Many a crossdresser and woman alike perpetuate certain stereotypes and/or expectations of what a crossdresser “should” or “must” be. This is unacceptable, and where effective communication and listening are imperative in answering the age old questions: “Who am I?” and “Who are you?” (The former to be asked by each CD of himself and the latter to be asked of the CD by the woman/Mistress.) In order to answer these questions, stereotypes are to be left at the door, so drop your preconceived notions, and come on in… more »

The specific history, evolution, preferences, desires, and experiences of each crossdresser is very unique and individual. Given that fact, it stands to reason that no two crossdressers are the same in who they are, where they’ve been, what they want or what they need. While “group” support is an essential part of any group who is considered a minority or “different” in some way, there ARE individual differences that must be acknowledged, appreciated, understood, and accepted in each person, and -just because people may belong to a certain misunderstood group- it does not mean that any other random member of that group can immediately or easily relate to the particular individual in question. The experience is like that of any other group whose members share a particular characteristic, affinity or collection of traits: Just because you are a crossdresser does not mean your experience is just like that of any other. YOU need to be appreciated, accepted, and understood for who you are in your uniqueness and individuality. While many women may not “get” you, it doesn’t mean that there are no women who will adore and accept you for you. I speak this from personal experience… more »

This one is for my backdoor boys! If you have read much about me on my blog, it should be quite obvious how much I think every man should enjoy his own ass. Toss the ridiculous notion that “OMG! I can’t possibly indulge myself and play with my ass because it might ‘mean something.’” That is simply ludicrous, and those of you who have ventured into AssLand know all too well that such an assumption is simply nonsense, a result of one’s own hang-ups, and leads to missing out on an amazingly ecstatic experience. Let’s face it: We ALL have asses, and whether and how we opt to take pleasure in using them is nothing more than an individual choice – one that can make those orgasms feel like a rocket blasting into space! more »

Happy Fourth everyone! During the weekend preceding this annual holiday, I have consistently heard the popping, pow-pow-powing, and bursting of fireworks all around our neighborhood. There’s been bang after bang after bang. Of course, with a holiday focused so heavily on so many active eruptions, I thought this might be a good time to discuss just what it is that makes YOU erupt like a bright, flaming fireworks display… more »

I am consistently so very pleased when my wonderful, incredibly feminine, and superbly submissive girl Nina Paige gets so swept up and carried away in her still new and fresh feminine liberation. We recently had a phenomenal session in which I selected a lovely coral -and very short!- prom dress, some sexy lingerie, come-fuck-me heels, and fantastic accessories -including a new wig!- for her to model for me during an upcoming session. Her excitement over the idea of presenting herself to me in an entire outfit that I chose specifically for her appeared to be exceptionally exciting and further fanned the flames of her feminine submission. However, I have discovered just how genuinely overwhelming -and obviously distracting- this experience is proving to be for both Nina Paige and Princess…

So… Nina went to pick up her dress and had a lovely time with the shop’s owner, who very thoughtfully extended an open invitation for Nina to utilize the services of her shop at any time. Of course, Nina was on Cloud Nine because she had gotten to express her femininity with the shop’s owner – and in a public setting. The shop owner was even so kind as to take a few snapshots of Nina Paige in her new dress, so Nina could send them to me for a preview. Eventually, in her state of feminine ecstasy, Nina wrapped up her girlie outing and proceeded to the car with her new dress in hand.

Once she reached the car, Nina -in being so very proud of her new acquisition and wishing to handle it with the greatest of care and respect- decided to take her time and very delicately place her dress in the trunk. According to what she told me, she very carefully laid the dress down, spread it out, and smoothed it gently in order to be certain that it was pristine and wrinkle-free. Once she was satisfied that her dress was perfectly placed inside the trunk, she closed it… and then discovered she had locked her keys inside the trunk with her new dress!!

At this point, Nina remained calm and just figured she would hop into the car and pop that handy trunk release and then retrieve the keys before going on her merry girlish way. However, Nina soon discovered that -in her newly acquired vehicle- there was NO button to initiate an easy and immediate opening of the trunk. While the electronic key for the car does offer an option to open the trunk, where do you think that handy dandy gadget was? Yes. It was also on the keychain that was locked in the trunk!

Now, you would think that at this point -even if Nina Paige did not react with panic- Princess would have stepped in and had a fit over locking the keys inside the trunk, but -perhaps much to your surprise- that was NOT the case. You may be puzzled and ask “Why did Nina or Princess not have an outright tantrum or panic attack?” Well, my dear Nina Paige has been ordered to remain in charge and exert her feminine patience, common sense, calmness, and firm grip on any and all -especially stressful- situations – and she made me incredibly proud by remaining in control of this situation, which she managed to give careful consideration and troubleshoot in a very smart, reasonable, and logical manner. Despite the multitude of ways in which this snafu could have led to disaster, my girl handled things like a calm, cool, and collected pro! She kept in mind that she has been expressly forbidden to go over the edge, blow up, panic or otherwise react negatively in any stressful situation, and she followed my instructions to the letter!

Nina Paige, on top of the amusement your absent-minded girlie hijinks provided me, you made your Mistress very, VERY proud with your behavior in the aftermath of your being completely in orbit in the feminine cosmos. I applaud your enthusiasm and management of the situation. You are SUCH an amazing girl – and I have so much fun in store for you very soon…

Despite the title of this post, make no mistake: Dildo and strap-on training are delightful treats for everyone! If you have a derriere, then assplay can be a “stimulating” and truly fulfilling experience for you. Whether your a subby sissy, curious crossdresser, simpering small-dick owner, cock-locked cuckold or a man’s man who happens to enjoy his backside, there is much fun and enjoyment to be had in dildo and/or strap-on training. If you haven’t tried, you certainly shouldn’t knock it, but you should join me for a discussion on the joys of sex toys and strap-on fun. more »

While it may sound ridiculous to some, the concept of financial domination is a very appealing fantasy to some men. However, choosing the proper -a “real” Mistress- who truly understands the compelling drive behind a man’s desire to be ordered, expected or otherwise “forced” to pay (for everything from the privilege of a shred of attention to simple blind homage) can present a great challenge. The bottom line for those men interested in financial domination is this: Do you want your financial dominatrix to be as into the fantasy -and the mind-fucking aspect- as possible OR Do you want simply to be ripped off by an empty, clueless, money-minded money grubber who could not care less about your fantasy – or your well-being and life? more »

Take a close look. I want you to notice the body language of the girl in this photo – the girl who would eventually come to be known as my model of submissive femininity, Nina Paige. This is the first photo I saw of her, and -especially in retrospect- it speaks volumes.

First, take note of how she is on the floor and her body is turned away from the camera, looking somewhat as though she has something -maybe herself?- to hide. Also, she has not only her face but her exposed arm camouflaged, as though someone might be able to identify her bare arm. The way she is almost hugging the wall, it appears that she is shying away from the camera or maybe even cowering in fear or insecurity. In short, this is not the image of a girl who is proud of or enjoying her femininity. Even the dark, conservative dress belies the femininity that was just waiting to burst forth… more »

Yes. That particular -and “special”- little sack holds those manly goodies that you try your best to protect at all costs. They must be safeguarded, lest you should get hit, smacked or struck in some other way, and double over in pain, feeling as if the family jewels have been hit with the full force of a wrecking ball. It is a pain like no other, and you want to avoid it at all costs. At least most of you do… more »

What does it mean to have a genuine dominant-submissive dynamic between two people? Over these past years, I have been very disillusioned to find that this is a question to which most men who ask to be dominated do not fully understand. It has become apparent to me that being truly and fully submissive to a dominant woman is a relationship that only the serious, sincere, and self-aware man understands and appreciates. So, again, I ask you: What does it mean to have a genuine dominant-submissive dynamic between two people? Let’s explore this question… more »

…And finally the day came when she evaded her captor long enough to make her way to my virtual doorstep. This meeting would be the beginning of her freedom… her liberation… her entrance into a world of beauty, girlhood, feminization and submission. Little did she know it at the time, but her world was about to change for the better – and forever! more »

There is nothing more exciting and beautiful than encouraging, observing, and being a part of the acknowledgment, nurturing, and blossoming of femininity. Given that fact, I have to go on to say what an incredibly fortunate Mistress I am to have the perfect model of femininity unfolding in front of me, day-by-day, as we speak.

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Words to live by from my lovely, feminine, submissive slave girl, Nina:

“For many decades, I kept the girl inside of me, gagged, chained, and locked in her mental prison. I let her come and play but under my terms only. When I first met Mistress said she would turn me into her feminine girly girl and she did. The girl inside me was released and I was psychologically turned into a girl on 6/1. But alas, I didn’t take her or mistress seriously. Little did I realize that the girl that Mistress had freed had no intention of ever being locked up again. more »

They had all been made very clear: the dynamics, the instructions, the expectations… However, “he” decided that he was going to blatantly and flagrantly ignore all of those and go in his own direction. That was when he made the mistake that would result in some dire ramifications, consequences that he will not soon forget! more »

Yes. I have quite a mouth on me – and it is good for so much more than verbally painting vivid images of sexual fantasies and giving insanely phenomenal blowjobs. It becomes more than slightly useful and effective when I feel the urge to free myself of a bee that’s been swirling about in my bonnet. I can also have a scorching, sassy, in-your-face attitude to match – and I do not apologize for either. In fact, my sharp tongue and no-nonsense, uncensored attitude are the perfect weapons for illustrating the points I am going to address. Something is on my mind, and I am going to share it with you… more »

I’ll tell you just like I tell my other half: His gorgeous, wonderful cock was perfectly made for my mouth – and how I LOVE having it there! In my mouth is absolutely one of the several places his cock belongs inside of me on a very regular basis. Let me tell you about one of those instances that occurred just a few nights ago… more »

I was instructed to go lie down on the bed – and you better believe I felt that familiar jolt of electricity between my legs (not to mention the flood of wetness) that hits me like a thunderbolt every time I know exactly what he is about to do… more »

I would say the other night was a night to remember – and it certainly was. However, I could say that about many a hot, sweaty, writhing night with the amazing man I call “Mine.” There is simply no end to the ways in which he sets me on fire and makes me gush (literally!) like the Hoover Dam after a massive explosion. I could go on and on about him for days… weeks… but we need to get back to the other night…

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Let us talk about something I simply do not understand because it is devoid of any good reason or logic – and is, quite frankly I think, one of the most ridiculous things I have ever heard: Men who recoil in disgust out of fear, their assessed “gross factor,” an/or homophobia at the question or mention of having ever sampled their own cum… more »

I LOVE SEX! I love it frequently, I love it wild – and, most of all, I love the fact that my man brings out the primal, passionate, lascivious, intensely sexual animal in me. Our scorching hot sex life is one that most only dream of experiencing. It is raw. It is honest. It is pure, unadulterated sexual bliss. more »

Yes. I am definitely, absolutely, and without a doubt a serious ass woman. Given that fact, I suppose it’s exceptionally lucky for me that my man loves this particular character trait of mine – and his nicely rounded, firm, yummy derriere is my favorite playground. How I thoroughly enjoy rubbing, kissing, licking, grabbing, scratching, fingering, caressing, and, most of all, fucking the daylights out of it! more »

Due to my own personal and educational backgrounds, as well as my long-time, self-propelled interests in people whom I feel are completely misunderstood by the vast majority of the narrow-minded, self-absorbed, and judgmental masses of society, who prefer to allow others to do their thinking for them, I feel in my liberality and open-mindedness that I am somewhat of an activist for those who are misunderstood. That attitude and my great empathy are two of the reasons I so enjoy being an outlet -free of judgment, ridicule, and censure; full of acceptance, understanding, and support. With me, the world of fantasies is wide open for exploration, investigation, and development. So, crossdressers, come on in! more »

Quality, titillating, worthwhile phone sex is about so much more than just hearing a woman unleash a barrage of dirty expletives in your ear. When you place a call for adult phone entertainment, it shouldn’t be a crapshoot, a best guess or hit-and-miss whether or not you will be truly heard, understood, openly accepted, and have your fantasy fulfilled – each and every time. Every phone experience you have should be worth your time, money, and the effort you put forth in sharing private, intimate details and establishing your fantasy needs and expectations. It should more than “just do” or be “adequate”; it should meet -if not exceed- your expectations every single time. Let me tell you how to get exactly what you want and need… more »

Not long ago, a fellow phone nymph said to me, “I do not like vanilla calls, and I won’t do them. I have put them on the [company's] list of call types that I will not accept.” Of course, I promptly inquired as to why she so readily -and vehemently- spurns “vanilla” calls. Her answer was short and simple: “They’re boring.” Hmmm… Perhaps it’s just me, but vanilla sex can be as sweet, exciting, and exotic as you make it… more »

So many fantasies… So little time…

One of the things I enjoy most in my clients is the great diversity of turn-ons, triggers, and sexual hotspots, which send them soaring into sexual ecstasy when developed successfully. Listening (to what is said and NOT), paying close attention, collaborating, and tailoring my “methods” to each individual’s needs are all important parts of giving YOU the most exquisite phone experience possible, which is always my ultimate goal.

During our time together, you and I are partners, virtual lovers, and sometimes even friends. You see, I am whatever you need in a woman. I am THE woman who will allow, encourage, and join you in sharing and experiencing those fantasies that you dare not disclose to anyone you know in person. In my realm, you are at home, a home in which you are heard, understood, accepted, and supported unconditionally and without fear of judgment. My playground is yours, and I will push you to enjoy yourself in an unrestrained and completely uncensored frenzy of wild abandon. Your longing is my longing. Your desires are my desires. Your pleasure is my pleasure. You are free to be whomever and whatever you like, and I will aggressively fan the flames of your excitement and yearning for sexual liberation within your fantasies. With me, the wide-open world of fantasies fulfilled is yours for the taking. That erotic openness and freedom for which you have always longed is no longer a dream; it is now very real.

Welcome, my Dear. You have found your fantasy and fetish Paradise… a Nirvana of exquisite sensual, lascivious, and carnal delights, where nothing is taboo or forbidden. The sky is the limit. Now… Relax, take a deep breath, and let our erotic exploration begin!